Starlight... Starbright....

I love you kid, I really do. However things were said, shit was thrown out there that just can’t be undone, on both our parts. I’ve stuck by you through thick & thin, ups and downs, and put up with way more shit than I woud’ve from anyone else. Why? Cause I got you, I got the shit you were going through even though I couldn’t fully understand why you did it, and it hurt so much each time you did such things. I never turned my back, I never let what others said change how I felt about you cause I knew you, or at least I thought I did. So many times I got why are you his friend, don’t you know he’s a bit off? The whole time I stuck up for you, cause they didn’t know you like I did. They didn’t get it, couldn’t understand why I was so nice to you. I was there time after time. Never judging, never making you feel out of place, always just there for you. We’ve gotten into fights, you bought tears to my eyes once before, but I forgave you, always. This time though, you threw some low blows. I wanted nothing more than to drive 2 hours to your house just to punch you in the throat. Once again you bought tears to my eyes, and my heart broke a little cause I knew it could never be fixed. I can’t be there anymore. A friendship goes two ways, and well I’m not feeling this one way street shit. You need more than I can ever give you, much more. I hope you find the help you need. And regardless of all that was said I wish you the best from the bottom of my heart. I can’t wish any ill will towards you, after all you were my best friend for a reason. You’re a cool guy, a good friend (on your good days), and no one makes my day turn around the way you did. I wish you coud see in yourself what I see. Perhaps one day we can talk again, not entirely sure about that. It’s been weeks since that fight, but it still stings and now every time I get a text or call from you I just hit ignore, something I never thought I would do with you. I’m sorry kid but I just can’t do this anymore. I know you’ll never read this but I had to put it out there, into words, for myself.